Monday, June 10, 2013
06/01 Worked on the 5th guardian piece by painting a mosaic of squares within the red center. Sat on my porch painting like I did before I had my own studio. My husband doesn't understand why I'm paying for a studio and painting at home. Why? Because it's a beautiful day and it feels right. I find it near impossible at times to explain my creative process.
Trying to decide whether or not to paint squares with white or orange - tested with ProCreate.
I decide to go with white. I do eventually go into my studio - more tweaks on the large piece.
Back at home I start the 6th piece while sitting on the floor of the little bedroom and it is extremely awkward to balance the large drawing board that I am painting on. I like the quiet and solitude of painting at home but as our house is so small, I've never really had any good working spaces there. Hence the big studio. I work on this piece listening to Byron Metcalf's "Helpers Guides and Allies" because that's just what they were meant to represent. I am not at all happy as the piece unfolds. I am extremely tired and my hand doesn't feel steady. I feel like I should be better at this by now. I am feeling a great deal of emotion. I tell myself that if I really don't like it that I can paint over it but I know that I won't because this isn't supposed to be about making something pretty. I'm supposed to be "going back to my roots" and creating in an unedited way. I have to push on and keep trusting that it will work out as it is supposed to. As the eyes and birds reveal themselves I start to feel a little relief. I know that I will come back this piece and work over the black with white paint and it will all work out. I think to myself the way my most honest pieces seem to get the most attention and I wonder if that will be the case with this one of the six.
I finish the piece and I'm happy that I didn't give up on it.
06/03 Finished the 6th piece, though there is no mantra on it.
I think I figured out the display order for The Six.
A series of in-progress pictures of this exhibit's creation can also be found on Flickr.