Tuesday, March 27, 2012
On 02/18 I'd teach my empowerment workshop (Mandala: An Artful Meditation) to 33 people at the Baum School of Art in Allentown, PA. I had been a little nervous to teach such a big group (I think my largest had been about 25) but I showed up fully present and it went very well. I even sold several pieces of art at the end. I told the group how I would be putting together a small studio workgroup to teach fearless artmaking and several of the participants were immediately interested.
I am back working on the mural, adding more background, more painting/scraping...
02/20 I FINALLY decide how to make the bottom of the wings look more like wings and I love it! I white out the area around her midriff and add detail inside the wings.
I start to add the "fills" on her body - the white detail over the black outlines. It will take a great deal of thought from this point forward of where all to put it as sometimes I'm not sure whether or not to leave some of the black lines show.
The background is almost completely filled in...
I start to feel really depressed. I want this thing DONE already. I feel like it's taking everything out of me.
(It was and it did. It was at this point I would realize that I was starting to experience separation anxiety. I knew the mural would be finding a new home (that was a gut feeling) and before it was even finished, I was mourning it's loss. Or rather, morning the loss of those old parts of me that the mural had come to represent.)
02/23 In the last few days/week that I would work on the mural, I would begin to feel very good about the process as a whole. I can be stubborn as can be with regards to letting go and moving forward because it's difficult for me to see my own potential. I am so very grateful I've had the pleasure of having friends with whom I was able to trust with helping to guide my personal growth. I wouldn't be who I am without them.
02/23 With the background complete I remember feeling like it might be a bit too much.
Signed but not yet finished.
And so what do I do? Add more graphics to the girl and the wings to make the whole thing even busier. I notice that some of the "tattoos" have personal symbolism that hadn't really shown up to this point - most specifically the triangle shaped arrows.
I add detail to the rounded white areas near her belly and I am happy that I decided to carve that area out.