Thursday, November 4, 2010
When I create, I am either doing in what I would call "going through the motions" (essentially practice) or what I will refer to as "going all in." This is an extreme example of going all in. I created this in a highly charged state of emotion. I was p*ssed. I was angry. I was frustrated. I wanted answers I couldn't get.
I was slapping the paints over the paper fast as can be, listening to my "Groove" playlist on my iPod. Speakers plugged in, I've got it cranked and I'm even angrier because I'm not painting a mandala. I don't know what this is, don't care how it looks, (it actually looks pretty cool) and I grab the white paint and obscure the bottom layer. I *MUST* do a mandala over top of this.
I sing along with the music but I get stuck on Amy Winehouse's "Tears Dry on Their Own." One of my all-time favorite songs, it's been the ringtone on my cell phone for I think 2 years... Listen close, the lyrics are pretty intense. The words that kept jumping out at me during this session were "inevitable withdrawal." Considering my state of mind at the time, they were perfect to describe my feelings and they were added to the painting, though misspelled.
This is where I left off that day and I think it's finished. Maybe I will go back and clean up some of the black lines Daniel Smith & Winsor Newton Acrylics on Multimedia Artboard.
Now take a minute & listen to Amy - goofy video, fantastic song.