Friday, December 26, 2008

I'm about to turn 40! Mandala and Mantra for continued transformation.

Watercolor Mandala and Mantra for Transformation

In 4 days, (on 12/31) I'll turn 40.

A birthday on the last day of the year always fills me with deep reflection on the past year, and contemplation for the next. As this birthday also marks a major milestone, it's become a time of confusion, frustration, questioning one's decisions, and deciding what needs to stay and what needs to go. (Literally and figuratively)

2008 was an outstanding year for me, but it also faced me with a number of difficult challenges.

I learned more about myself as a person- on how to grow and keep growing, than in all previous years combined.

I broke free from myself on numerous occasions and tried my hardest to "leave blood on the floor." (And damn if it didn't feel great!)

I took chances and destroyed harmful patterns in 2008 because no one achieves anything they truly desire by playing things safe.

I was ready for more, I asked for more, and it was given to me.

So now, entering into a new year as well as a new decade into my life, I am again ready for transformation and am certain, that 2009 will surpass 2008's level of excellence. And with each challenge that comes my way, I will review it with a clear mind and act accordingly, taking whatever action is necessary to continue moving forward.

Thomas Ashley Farrand's book, Chakra Mantras: Liberate Your Spiritual Genius Through Chanting led me to the following mantra:

Gate Gate Para Gate Para Sam Gate Bodhi Suvaha is a mantra (known as the "Prajna Paramita" or "Heart Sutra") "to develop bodhicitta, the mental desire and state of readiness to receive higher knowledge and enlightenment."

This website states: "Use the mantra of the Prajna Paramita to take you beyond. Let it take you to the other shore. Allow it to awaken you. Let it remind you of your becoming. Let it carry you away without your leaving."

I think I'm finally starting to understand just a tiny little bit about life. It's not enough to just exist. Life is about transformation, and life is about continued evolution. It's about listening carefully when a lesson is being taught, and to freely give that information away to those who need it.

Life is about being sensitive to the needs of others, but also to your own needs as well. It's about being a good person with no hidden agendas.

2009 will another great year of my moving forward.
Of knocking down walls and building anew,
Of transformation,
Of evolution,
Of action.

If you wish it, may it be the same for you.


*Note - Gate is pronounced "Ga-teh.", and I have taken liberties with the spelling of "swaha" or "svaha" by spelling it "suvaha" which is how I've heard it spoken.

**Note - If you are familiar with mantra, I don't typically sing them in the traditional sing-songy way. I sing them in whatever way suits me. For this heart sutra, I sing it fast, like someone singing tabla poetry, but with a syncopated feel. Whatever works, right?

My watercolor was created on Arches Hot Press paper. Daniel Smith/Holbein/Schmincke watercolor paints. Mantra written with Sennelier China Black ink with a Cretacolor dip pen. (Drawing Nib)


Anonymous said...

What a great entry!
40 is greater than 39...

Anonymous said...

Pre-Happy Birthday! While I'm not with you on the mantras and such, I am happy that you are comfortable in your life and seeking to better understand yourself and the world around you.

I'm also glad you're reviewing things I care about :)

Hope that 40+ makes life so much sweeter!

Is 40 the new 30?

mzjohansen said...

Amazing post Biff - and let me assure you that the years just get better. The old tune that goes "something's lost but something's gained in living every day" is more true than you could ever know. Life is one great adventure - replete with ups and downs perhaps - but truly a wonderful journey ! Congrats - live well and prosper & HAPPY BIRTHDAY !

Anonymous said...

Biffy; I can relate to your birthday on the last day of the year, mine is on the first day of the year. So lets toast the old and bring in the new. Happy birthday wishes.


Zoe, ontheroad said...

All the best for the big 40; plenty of juice after that but a memorable number and one I hope you ride into with a golden ring.

thethirdrat said...

Great post Biffy. I'm impressed that your so cool about turning 40. I've got two years and three months to go (not that I'm counting) and I'm already worrying about it. I'm not old enough to be this old dammit.

Stephanie "Biffybeans" Smith said...

Jim - Here's to hoping so!

Chris - Thank you!

Thank you Marie!

Bob - Happy Birthday to us!

Thank you Zoe!

Hey Adam, I'm actually pretty terrified! I'm not old enough to this old either! :o)

B2-kun said...

Hope you enjoyed a great birthday celebration. Best wishes for 2009!

Anonymous said...

happy birthday and my very best wishes of love, luck, happiness and health for this year 2009

regards from fpn member georges zaslavsky

Anonymous said...

Happy Birthday!

This is the most incredibly inspiring post. You are a most incredible person, Biffy. Thank you for all the help and guidance you've given me. You are truly amazing.

All the best for 2009 - hope to see you in it!

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